my romcom monologue

for lack of better description

I am crazy about you and I would shout it from the rooftops or write a thousand letters to you to prove it. I want to brighten your days. I want to do everything in my power to ensure you never go another day worrying if someone loves you or not.

I will listen to your problems every day. I will make your favorite foods and coffee in the morning. I hope we like the same shows but if not I will gladly watch your favorites just so I can understand your references. I will write you notes and draw you pictures, and I will hate my handwriting and think my drawings inadequate but I will do it anyway. I’ll take you to museums and concerts and fancy dinners after. And on picnics under our favorite tree.

I know that I will love imperfectly and I hate that. But I will try again over and over and I will show you the grace and forgiveness that I’ve received.

I’m afraid that one of us will die long before the other but that won’t stop me from falling deeply and completely in love with you.

I need you to be gentle with my heart because I’ve had friends who I thought would last forever leave out of the blue and my last relationship ended abruptly. So I need to learn to trust again.

I was born with only one full leg, which can mean a lot of things. But mostly it makes me think that I sometimes won’t be able to walk to the store in the snow even when I really want to go before you woke up because you told me you wanted pancakes for breakfast at 11pm the night before but we didn’t have the right ingredients to make them. But it doesn’t mean I won’t learn to dance with you before our wedding. Sometimes I worry that I’ll lose my hair and as stupid as I know that worrying about looks actually is, it’s because it’s just one example of how I wish I could be more attractive so you could show me off.

I will cry with you and hug you for hours on end if you’ll let me. I’ll say how beautiful you are and I will mean it because I will fall for every little part of you both inside and out. I will listen to your insecurities and I will remind you that my love and God’s love eclipse all of those.

I will learn your favorite everything and write it down just in case I forget (which isn’t likely). I will use all of these things I learn to surprise you with gifts and to take you places I think you’ll like. We will have unrivaled inside jokes. I will constantly tell my friends how lucky I am, and everybody will be jealous of how in love we are.

I will hold your hand at the movies and I will tear up if you rub mine with your thumb. I will fluff your pillow just how you like it. I will knit you scarves and stitch blankets. I won’t rush ahead of you when we’re walking somewhere (for some reason my dad does does sometimes that and my mom hates it). I will bake cookies just so the house smells nice and you have a warm snack when you get home from a long day.

I will slowly share the parts of me that feel most vulnerable or things I am ashamed of, and when you share yours I will listen and do everything I can to help you heal.

I will fight for love. I will pray that love is protected, and I will cry out to God through tears when things in life get difficult knowing that He will sustain us.

I will think of a thousand other things I want to share with you and ten thousand ways that you brighten my days.

I do not know precisely what the future holds. But I do know that you will inspire me to write poems. To find joy in everyday moments. To pour out my soul to you. You already do just by existing. I love you.

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I was laying in bed thinking I would soon go to sleep and I suddenly had this urge to start writing this down. So I sat up, and in one burst typed out all of these words. I dedicate this to you, whoever you are. Maybe you’re reading this right as it’s published, or maybe we haven’t even met yet.

To everyone else, as always ily and thank you for reading <33